Albert Einstein once said "insanity is doing the same thing over and over again expecting different results." Well, I feel like I'm getting close but I will spare you the details and say this;
It's time to change gears. The internet is effecting my artistic practice, I find that I am constantly looking for something to write, tweet, post about that I can’t be creative. I feel like there is a lot of wasted time and loss of interaction. All of this 'social networking' is making me eminently unsocial.
I’ve been trying to really think about what it is that I think I am good at and the conclusion I came to is that I’m good at people - but face-to-face people, I enjoy conversation but I hate talking on the phone. So it makes me wonder why I would think I would be good at 'talking' to people on-line. It just feels like something is missing to me and like I am trying to be something that I’m not.
With constant pressure to produce more and always be present and interact online, I loose myself in that rather than loosing myself in my work. I don’t understand how to make it all work together – it’s just not me. As an artist my work improves by working continuously and there are times when I am incredibly productive and then it gets interrupted by the pressure to be on line. I’m trying too hard, its not working. It’s time to get more involved in the community and the social networking that I understand; with real people.
Some people seem to have the knack for the Internet but I went from working with groups of 25 people at a time 5 days per week, interacting, talking, meeting so many interesting people, to sitting on a computer trying to get people to notice me and join in conversations where my responses are taken the wrong way. This isn’t working and I think that is important to understand when its time to try something new.
I know this is similar to posts that I’ve written in the past but, things have really come to hit me in the past few weeks. I’m just not cut out for this internet business. Perhaps this is not a smart move on my part but in thinking of when and how I have had success with my work in the past, it’s always been in person. Of course that doesn’t mean I won’t be using the internet at all anymore, I think that is pretty near impossible these days, but I think it will be second to the work, and only when I have something that I think is truly worth sharing. I’m betting that your not interested in seeing a post from me everyday on my facebook page telling you that I made another pair of earrings. I will be taking some time to re-evaluate and re-focus. I truly admire those of you who have found a way to make this all work and who have found success on-line, but for me its time for a different approach.
The blog will stay up, but again only be updated when I think there is something interesting to share with you! Thanks for reading and please feel free to contact me anytime!